I care too much & you couldn't care less.

When it comes to me, we can go for days without talking, & even if we did it always has to be ME who starts a conversation.. Can’t you see how much I care for you, how hard I try to make conversation with you? I never asked for too much. Never. I just need you to show me a little attention. I want to feel like the rest of them. You always have to point out my flaws & my imperfections. Everything I do or say just doesn’t seem enough. It kills me to see the look in your eyes when you look at me.. It makes me see how much of a disappointment I am.

Wakeup call!

Suddenly it hits me *BAAAAAAAM* – ok not exactly – It’s more like a slap on my face. I didn’t see it coming; oh I DEFINITELY didn’t see it coming. Who are you again? Miss I-know-every-freakin’-thing? Tsk tsk tsk, honey you don’t have a damn clue :). Funny how you’re the one who actually know the LEAST but still have the MOST to say. Before you judge me, just take a GOOD look at YOURSELF. What’s even HILARIOUS-ER *If that’s even a word* You didn’t have the GUTS to say it straight to my face. I’m just wondering what being shady and shit ever gotten you? NOTHING. You have no one to turn to. Even your so-called friends talk behind your back. I’m not even surprised, you do the same thing. You talk shit about them too. & you call yourself a good friend? Think again. You’re a bunch of hypocrites, back-stabbers- shallow-lifeless-people. You need someone to seriously pull you from your hair and slap you. Because you really, I mean really need a wakeup call. You could really use a slap. Eventually whatever was cloudy in your eyes becomes clear. I don’t think there’s anything left to say. Ahh, I had to let it out. I’m just sorry for you, because you’re sad, really sad.

Life is a .. puzzle!

Sometimes you feel like life is closing up on you.. Walls collapsing on you.. You can feel the heavy weight on your shoulders & you just sit there, unable to move.. That's how you feel when you're in middle of a problem, a huge, complicated problem. All you need is to explain yourself, point out your point of view, tell your side of the story. But no one listens to you. Everyone turns their back on you. When all you need is guidance.. & all you want to hear is an advice! but how can you go through the pain, confusion, and pressure by yourself? Everyone needs someone to reassure them, to tell them that no matter how hard and long a journey is, it starts with one single step!

- H.

Summer Vacay,

As much as I looked forward for my summer vacation, I really hate it,it's too boring.
I desperately want to travel, but my parents don't want to *sigh*. I've been going out almost everyday, watching tv shows ALL day long *if I didn't go out*, sleeping until 2 PM. I don't know what's gotten into me >.< something's/someone missing.. & I know what is it :/ my friends!! I miss hanging out with them big time. & I've been re-watching all the hilarious movies I watched recently, like; the hangover, the proposal, four christmases, 17 again, Date night... etc. I honestly don't know how to end this post soo.. todololoo!

This life is what you make it..